Jay

deathdesire13 @ 2005-01-02T13:36:00

2005-01-02T18:37:04Z

NEW journal : id0ntkn0w

personality test...

2003-11-30T22:33:33Z

HEALER
(Submissive Extrovert Concrete Feeler )

Jay
Like just 9% of the population you are a HEALER (SECF)-- caring, good with people, and patient. You are completely selfless and full of love. As a concrete feeler, you do well with your emotions, which are very strong. You understand and appreciate *why* you feel the way you do, and for the most part you're at peace with yourself.

Suffering in the world really pisses you off.

In relationships, it's easy for you to get hurt. Avoid all kinds of dominant (D***) people, *especially* in dating or marriage. You are a motherly figure, even if you're a guy. If you're a girl, make sure you're a mom some day. The world's children need people like you. If you're a guy, don't even think about it. Most pedophiles are HEALERS.

On the rare occasions when you try to assert yourself, you're cute and awkward, but highly effective.

what a queer

2003-11-27T22:57:54Z

shit, i don't even remember whats happened since i last typed in here
i went to the weiney roast, it was awesome, i was in the front for three days grace, and i got the drummer's autograph..
i went to a frat party for halloween, that was great.

boys are smelly.

nope, still don't have a boyfriend, but i really don't care anymore. i've changed alot... maybe its the zoloft... well, i know its the zoloft, and rehab... but i like it... i'm proud of myself.. so it's cool.

kevin is out of jail, he did some growdy stuff with two sisters, but yeah... actually, no... even the stuff in my past isn't as bad as that.

and to say, i haven't had sex in like 9-10 months. And i don't plan on having it until i find someone truly special, those one nighters are over. and the players are growdy... it makes me sick... it used to be like.. oh baby.. come here... and now its just like ew... what the hell? its just gross and sickning unless your truly in love, and the other person loves you back...

wow, look at me mom!
screw that, she needs to be in a mental hospital, i mean i love her... but she lets jon beat her, and thinks nothing about it.

me: HELLLOOo, he punched in the face and knocked you unconscious..
mom: ha ha ha, soo? its not like he does it all the time...

what the fuck? i hate both my parents. i mean i love them both... but they both think they haven't done anything to contribute to my damage... and its bullshit. my dad is trying.. but he just can't seem to see the light. he is stubborn... but he takes care of me... which is more than i can say for my mom...

but i'm still moving out when i'm 17, so i can have some privacy and some freedom before i turn 18... yucky.. i hate getting older... i have a fear of getting older. getting closer and closer to death... yucky... i wish i could be like 19 forever... it would be great.

i hope kevin and me can have that apartment together... kevin is my friend... i want to try and help him... but i don't know... it might be too hard... god... stupid kevinano.. bla!

deathdesire13 @ 2003-10-17T17:00:00

2003-10-17T21:10:11Z

http://pages.m80im.com/?QzoxNDg6Mjk3OTg0

go there... its kill hannah, the best band in the world!!!

deathdesire13 @ 2003-10-01T21:33:00

2003-10-02T01:33:21Z

boys suck...

oh emo boi

2003-09-27T03:13:35Z

mmmm... i got a crush.. a big crush.. and i don't think they return the favor... i'm not sure... i don't know.i've been uped to 100 mg of zoloft. i love connie, she is like my second mom. kevin is still in jail.. i sent him a b'day card.. i know.. i'm stupid. i'm going to the weiney roast. yay! i love rocio... i love rachel.. but i think rachel is mad at me... grrr. crap... i'm not even gonna talk to aaron. i mean... i don't even know him. i was just saying hi... i think she is mad... i didn't do anything :( crappy poo

i made a new purse... i'm making rocio one... its got stars... its purple ... yay. rachel gave me a ring. its purty. walmart sucks, they didn't get my pics back in time. oh emo boi.. but there is also this little punker... but i don't even know him... and beauty is only skin deep. but he was talking about three days grace.. and they rock... yeah! i love punkers.. there so cute... but emos are so adorable...

hmph. alex is pretty!!! yeah. i don't know. i need to make things.. i gotta make some pants... i need to make some stuff. yeah yeah. ok... well... i think thats it. paige smells... muhahaha...

dustin! cut your hair!

...

2003-09-14T23:20:03Z

I saw Andrew today at Wal-Mart, it made me sick, he glanced at me and kept walking... when i saw him my eyes got big as hell and my chest started hurting... guys are soo stupid.

lll....

2003-09-14T01:13:47Z

I forgot to say I haven't done drugs in awhile, and I'm doing good from keeping away from them... cause I had a chance to steal some from my nana and i didn't... rehab might be working.. i'm kinda proud

Zoloft sucks

2003-09-14T01:07:09Z

My Zoloft isn't working. Kevin is in Jail, and Jamie is a whore because she stole Jon and then she kissed Matt knowing I liked both of them. I'm not talking to her anymore. Kevin is in Catawba County Jail and he might have a year. I can't make fun of him now! I hate life. Guys suck.... I made ab honor roll.. still sucks. Gotta go to Weiney Roast! Three Days Grace is gonna be there... Sean is taking me to prom... Timmah sucks... I want to move in with Ashley, but I need a car. I finished my community service, and got some new boots from there, and a new skirt and shirt... and a blue oyster cult album! but life still sucks... Gotta go see Cabin Fever. I love Rocio, and Rachel! I don't even know why I try in life... it sucks... WEINEY! Gotta go!! sooo so crack headed ness.

MMM... yeah... lifes like that

2003-08-15T22:40:31Z

Me and Jenello aren't friends anymore, over the summer when Kevin was living in the woods near my house for like 3 days he told me that him and Jenelle kissed and that she told him not to tell me, so she betray me, and I can't be friends with someone who will do that to me... But me and Kevin were talking over the summer and we were suppose to hook up when I started trusting him again. And he was telling me he loved me, and that he wouldn't hurt me again, but sure enough when school started he found some stupid blonde freshman girl, and he is telling everyone that i'm stalking him, and he is talking junk about me to everyone... so i called him and questioned and cussed him out... but he denied it.. but i know he is lying... he can't disrespect me like that, cause I didn't do a dam thing to him... I took care of him when he had nowhere to go.. and this is what i get? What the fuck? I don't deserve this, that bastard said he loved me... he said he didn't want anyone else... that's ok tho... cause he is gonna pay...

I'm trying to get with Jamie, but she is just confusing me... so I don't know what to do...
Right now I'm at Rocio's house, cause I can't stay with at my grandpa's house anymore... he has gone crazy...

I'm lonely....

Rise up rebellous Punks! Join me! Kills the clowns!

Hey

2003-07-16T16:51:07Z

Jen was gonna run away last nite, and she did... but she came back.. i talked to jiggy (kevin) and he hung up on me cause I caught him in a lie... and he is just dumb... but I'm soo happy that jen came back, cause she is my jen.. and i can't live without her. soooo glad! praise the lord! now i can have a boring life with a smile... thank you god for breaking jen's ankle.. that sounds bad.. but its da truf! yeah, ok... nickel friday.. gonna go to the movies with rachel and some guy named erin... yep.. k

deathdesire13 @ 2003-07-06T18:28:00

2003-07-06T22:30:14Z

Life is so boring... and the only thing i'm looking up to is the fact that me and jen and matt are gonna partah! I feel weird tho, cause jen wrote some stuff in her journal... and i guess she thinks i'm a junkie... and a druggie... dammit. I'm trying to find my purpose in life.. but with school out... I can't really do anything... dammit... I don't want to be looked at as a dumb ass druggie... cause i'm not!!!!!!!!!!!

trust?

2003-06-26T05:16:41Z

from this...

Blackcherrie31: two stackers a day
JeN413n704: ...
Blackcherrie31: 2 stackers a day
JeN413n704: kevin told me to tell u that he hatez ur ass
Blackcherrie31: feelings mutualllneessss
JeN413n704: right right
Blackcherrie31: u all... meanny now?
JeN413n704: *shrugz* just busy
Blackcherrie31: >:o
Blackcherrie31: why u gonna let kevin break us up
Blackcherrie31: what about last nite dammit
JeN413n704: last night?
JeN413n704: who the hell are you talkin about?
Blackcherrie31: i didn't mean to shoot u in the eye
Blackcherrie31: sometimes i just get... touchy
Blackcherrie31: shut up jen... why are u acting like dis?
JeN413n704: me? ....
JeN413n704: im not the one acting weird
Blackcherrie31: =-O
Blackcherrie31: how?
Blackcherrie31: i needed somewhere to stay! my dad beat me up
Blackcherrie31: and when you said no... that hurt me... like oooo kevin has won
Blackcherrie31: that little eminem looking bitch
JeN413n704: he lookz hott now...
JeN413n704: i dyed his hair all blue-y
JeN413n704: and spikey
Blackcherrie31: what did he do... get a /... n/m i'm all out
Blackcherrie31: my speed is dying.
Blackcherrie31: IS THIS ABOUT JERSEY?
JeN413n704: scott? ... why would it be?
Blackcherrie31: And why is kevin giving messages to you about me? what the hell did i do to him.. he is the one that hurt me
Blackcherrie31: i don't know.. nm
JeN413n704: ok
JeN413n704: LMAO
Blackcherrie31: are u still on cords?
JeN413n704: nope quit
JeN413n704: kevinz been gettin me acid =D
Blackcherrie31: wtf jen... all i did was care about you and be nice to you
Blackcherrie31: fuck that asshole.
JeN413n704: yea well
Blackcherrie31: is matt still butt buddies with him
JeN413n704: it seemz u only talk to me when u need somethin
JeN413n704: Matt's in Jersy
Blackcherrie31: i don't need anything right now
Blackcherrie31: and i'm talking to u
Blackcherrie31: that fuck at a group home
Blackcherrie31: whats his num?
JeN413n704: i duno
JeN413n704: u want me to tell him anythin for ya?
Blackcherrie31: hell no
Blackcherrie31: i'll tell him myself.
JeN413n704: why u want his number then?
Blackcherrie31: Cause imma talk to him
Blackcherrie31: no passing messages back and forth
Blackcherrie31: jesus...
JeN413n704: about wut?
Blackcherrie31: this is bullshit.
JeN413n704: kevin wantz to kno why
Blackcherrie31: your gonna throw away 1 year for some stupid guy
JeN413n704: a year of what?
Blackcherrie31: Your hurting me
JeN413n704: you hurt me
Blackcherrie31: worse than kevin

Blackcherrie31: worse than dion
Blackcherrie31: worse than andrew
Blackcherrie31: all put together
Blackcherrie31: how?
Blackcherrie31: how did i hurt u
JeN413n704: jersy
Blackcherrie31: a year of what i thought was friendships
Blackcherrie31: WHAT?
JeN413n704: im not like... urz all urz
JeN413n704: im just me
JeN413n704: and i deserve ta have fun too
Blackcherrie31: WHAT?
JeN413n704: so fuck it all
JeN413n704: you can hate me the world can hate me
Blackcherrie31: WHAT THE HELL ABOUT JERSEY
Blackcherrie31: JERSEY ASKED ME OUT.. AND I TOLD HIM NO.. CAUSE I KNEW IT WOULD HURT U
Blackcherrie31: EVEN THO UR ALL WITH EMINEM NOW
JeN413n704: nah.. he's more like.... that guy on i bet you wont... with tha blu spikeyz
Blackcherrie31: I STILL THINK AOUT IT
JeN413n704: he's like... my creation
Blackcherrie31: WELL THATS JUST GREAT
Blackcherrie31: NO.. ACTUALLY THATS DISGUSTING
Blackcherrie31: U REMIND ME OF FUCKING TEDDY
JeN413n704: nah
Blackcherrie31: o... wait... yah
JeN413n704: teddy went out with you
Blackcherrie31: wtf?
JeN413n704: i dont do that kinda shit
Blackcherrie31: what is the deal with jersey?
Blackcherrie31: what the fuck did i do
Blackcherrie31: i know what i didn't do
Blackcherrie31: i called him.. once.
Blackcherrie31: is that a big deal?
JeN413n704: well it led to something
JeN413n704: cuz he was all talkin to me about it
Blackcherrie31: LEAD TO WHAT?
Blackcherrie31: LEAD TOOOOOO WHAT?
JeN413n704: lead to him wantin u
JeN413n704: dunno how it got to there
Blackcherrie31: OMG
Blackcherrie31: WHAT THE FUCK
JeN413n704: but i dont even care anymore
Blackcherrie31: WHAT THE FUCK
Blackcherrie31: HOW IS THAT SHIT MY FAULT?
JeN413n704: i guess u were caught in the middle
Blackcherrie31: Why are u friends with kevin?
Blackcherrie31: is that to get back at me?
Blackcherrie31: I'm not doing anything with jersey
Blackcherrie31: cause i loved u man
Blackcherrie31: but this is bullshit.
Blackcherrie31: I could give a fuck less about Kevin.. but its you...
Blackcherrie31: your suppose to be there for me
Blackcherrie31: your suppose to be my friend.
Blackcherrie31: i didn't fuck with jersey.. cause u were my best friend.
JeN413n704: friendz with kevin? ......
Blackcherrie31: what
Blackcherrie31: is he there right now
Blackcherrie31: whatever.
JeN413n704: no... im bout to go see him tho
JeN413n704: gotta go
Blackcherrie31: go see him where
Blackcherrie31: nah.. i need some closure.
Blackcherrie31: Jen...
JeN413n704: what
JeN413n704: he's a player... what more do u need?
Blackcherrie31: not about him
Blackcherrie31: about u
JeN413n704: well ur gonna have to get it when im thinkin clear
JeN413n704: cuz im kinda cloudy right now
Blackcherrie31: Ur just gonna shut me out, and let him in
JeN413n704: WELLLLLLLLLL
JeN413n704: u kinda... pulled urself out
JeN413n704: and him n matt we pulled each otha in
JeN413n704: we had a family moment
lackcherrie31: Oh ok... so me and kev break up
Blackcherrie31: and cause i'm grounded
Blackcherrie31: yall trip together..
Blackcherrie31: and then ur a family.
Blackcherrie31: drugs are illusions.
Blackcherrie31: and ur stuck in a fucking illusion
JeN413n704: nah
JeN413n704: im not relaly on drugz
JeN413n704: i've been off
Blackcherrie31: Your little friend Kevin is an asshole out of that illusion
JeN413n704: for almost 3 weekz
JeN413n704: you just gotta kno when n how to play it jay
Blackcherrie31: what the fuck is that suppose to mean?
Blackcherrie31: I told scott no cause of u, and ur all over kevin
JeN413n704: sayz who?
Blackcherrie31: sayz who what
Blackcherrie31: i have consideration of you
JeN413n704: well
Blackcherrie31: and when me and kev started dating.. u said yourself that you didn't like him
JeN413n704: i was almost positive u were goin in a circl
JeN413n704: e
JeN413n704: well im good with wallz =D
Blackcherrie31: what are u talking about
JeN413n704: im not even sure anymore
JeN413n704: life is a game
Blackcherrie31: where are u meeting him
JeN413n704: in 20 minz
Blackcherrie31: where
Blackcherrie31: has he heard from mike yet
JeN413n704: lmao mike
Blackcherrie31: yeah
Blackcherrie31: guess not.
Blackcherrie31: soo.. are u and kevin dating or something
Blackcherrie31: hello
Blackcherrie31: Whatever Jen, He is gonna hurt you, and although you think I hurt you... you know thats bullshit.. i can't control someone liking me... And I fucking loved you jen.... more than kevin or matt or whoever will even .... and me and you we got caught up in that fucking dex shit.. and it fucked everything up... but drugs are bullshit... and beneath that was suppose to be friendship

Blackcherrie31: You go and get caught up in it.
Blackcherrie31: But whether its my doings or just fucking karma... Kevie Boi is gonna get what he deserves.. and i hate to see you get caught in it with him
Blackcherrie31: We had something that was suppose to be good.. but remember you fucked it up
Blackcherrie31: cause i haven't done anything to u
Blackcherrie31: The only thing i did was get you into dex... and i'm sorry
Blackcherrie31: Acid... thats really being straight for 3 weeks.. right?
JeN413n704: i dexed 2 weekz ago
JeN413n704: almost died
Blackcherrie31: i thought u were off
JeN413n704: but um
JeN413n704: thankz fer bein there
Blackcherrie31: you could get off.
JeN413n704: and thankz fer bein there when i od'ed too
Blackcherrie31: i've been off for a month and a week
Blackcherrie31: its possible
Blackcherrie31: 2 stackers a day
JeN413n704: yea do u get headaches?
JeN413n704: wikked bad onez
Blackcherrie31: use to..
JeN413n704: for hourz straight
Blackcherrie31: 2 stackers a day
Blackcherrie31: keeps the dex threats away
JeN413n704: u wanna kno somethin weird
Blackcherrie31: u found out about my orgy with the farm animals
JeN413n704: i like JUST took 2 .... b4 i got on... and i hadn't in like... even thought about em
Blackcherrie31: why
JeN413n704: nvm
Blackcherrie31: ur brains gonna die.
JeN413n704: too late
Blackcherrie31: and ur smart.. u don't need to waste that.
Blackcherrie31: how many did u take when u o'd
Blackcherrie31: i'm sorry i wasn't there.. u never called....
JeN413n704: ... not stackerz not cordz ....
Blackcherrie31: what
JeN413n704: yeah but Matt brought me a taco
Blackcherrie31: i was gonna.. but i ate it
JeN413n704: u ever puke up green foam for 3 dayz straight?
JeN413n704: every hour... on the hour?
Blackcherrie31: yeah.. after that orgy
JeN413n704: that's sick
Blackcherrie31: i think i caught some kinda poo in my mouth when i was su-- nevermind
Blackcherrie31: does kevie boi make u happy
JeN413n704: *shrugz*
Blackcherrie31: pumpin acid in ur head...
JeN413n704: no...
JeN413n704: no acid
Blackcherrie31: uuu said it
JeN413n704: i kno
JeN413n704: once
Blackcherrie31: good trip... bad trip....
Blackcherrie31: i got 3 hydro codeinesssss
Blackcherrie31: want one
Blackcherrie31: just kiddin
Blackcherrie31: cant have none
JeN413n704: ok
JeN413n704: didnt want one
Blackcherrie31: hydro isn't for poo heads.
Blackcherrie31: but it is for people who have sex with goats
Blackcherrie31: i''m good i'm good
Blackcherrie31: raise up
Blackcherrie31: raise up
Blackcherrie31: raise up
Blackcherrie31: raise up
Blackcherrie31: now ur my casey.
Blackcherrie31: mu hahhahahahahah.
Blackcherrie31: shut up
Blackcherrie31: i still light up inside when i see u
Blackcherrie31: im looking at you sleeping through your window like a stalker.
JeN413n704: um no?
Blackcherrie31: i'm tapping on the glass.... i era era era era era... but the house is vacant i'm staring at no one.
Blackcherrie31: just the goats
Blackcherrie31: dammit jen
Blackcherrie31: i'm your cord twin you foo
Blackcherrie31: he is nothing.
Blackcherrie31: i was gonna curse you and bit at your ankles when you walk by.. but now i'm just gonna annoy you
Blackcherrie31: attack your probs like a pro
Blackcherrie31: *bite
JeN413n704: what?
Blackcherrie31: i'm gonna cut my hair.. spike it...
JeN413n704: you have totally fuckking lost it yo
Blackcherrie31: and then..
JeN413n704: lmao
Blackcherrie31: I'M GONNA GET A BRITISH ACCENT.. AND A SEX CHANGE
JeN413n704: no
Blackcherrie31: NO BLUE THO.. I'M NOT SKANKY LIKE EMIKEV
Blackcherrie31: I'M MORE SEXY THAN THAT HO
Blackcherrie31: MU HA HA HA
JeN413n704: keep talking....
JeN413n704: what are u on?
Blackcherrie31: MY SPEED HAS WORN OFF.
Blackcherrie31: BUT IMMA GONNA POP TWO MORE... IF... HOW LONG WILL YOU BE ON?>
JeN413n704: i'll stay on...
Blackcherrie31: I BUY BOTTLES OF 20S EVERY 2 HOURS
JeN413n704: n i'll be here when i get back?
Blackcherrie31: WHA?
Blackcherrie31: I THOUGHT YOU HAD TO MEET SHITFACE
JeN413n704: i am
Blackcherrie31: NEVER DRINK ON STACKERS! IT GIVES U ARTHRITIS.
JeN413n704: ok
JeN413n704: u do that....
Blackcherrie31: NO
Blackcherrie31: DON'T LEAVE ME!
Blackcherrie31: I JUST TOOK 2 STACKERS..
JeN413n704: im goin...
Blackcherrie31: THAT'S DANGEROUS!
JeN413n704: that's nice
JeN413n704: me too
Blackcherrie31: U SAID YOU WOULD STAY
Blackcherrie31: Now imma be up all night.
Auto response from JeN413n704: gone... for a bike ride =P
Blackcherrie31: u bastard

to that..

Blackcherrie31: U FOO
Blackcherrie31: GABE IS GAY
Blackcherrie31: WASN'T HE AN INTERNET
JeN413n704: lmao
JeN413n704: yea
JeN413n704: sue me....
JeN413n704: i had feelingz for everyone
Blackcherrie31: EVEN... JIMMIE.
JeN413n704: i love u ajy
Blackcherrie31: who is ajy?
JeN413n704: LMAO i kissed him on the last day of skule
Blackcherrie31: u cheatin
JeN413n704: LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO
JeN413n704: so nasty
Blackcherrie31: eww,
Blackcherrie31: why
JeN413n704: that/s the day... that like... i kissed everyone
JeN413n704: LMAO
JeN413n704: duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuude
JeN413n704: jayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
JeN413n704: serious
JeN413n704: kevinz not worth it
JeN413n704: let me play gamez
Blackcherrie31: wha
Blackcherrie31: did u get the toaster
JeN413n704: LMAO
JeN413n704: i dont even have a toaster
JeN413n704: does that sucK?
Blackcherrie31: u lieninin
JeN413n704: i swear!
Blackcherrie31: where is kevin
JeN413n704: sleepin
Blackcherrie31: then how did u meet him
JeN413n704: he just went to bed
JeN413n704: on tha flip side
Blackcherrie31: wha
JeN413n704: i duno
Blackcherrie31: he needs some beauty sleepp... tons of it
Blackcherrie31: HA
JeN413n704: u cant have feelinz for a kid like that
Blackcherrie31: damaged kid..
Blackcherrie31: with a dad who commited suicide.
Blackcherrie31: so what are u saying
JeN413n704: lmao
JeN413n704: im not sure.....
JeN413n704: i learned from the best
Blackcherrie31: who
Blackcherrie31: jimmie
JeN413n704: gabriel
JeN413n704: he taught me... tonz
JeN413n704: which is why.... im carefree
JeN413n704: and happy
Blackcherrie31: so... are u pushing kevie over for me.. or are u gonna scrunch us together.
Blackcherrie31: my pen pal from a year ago wrote me some mail... it freaked me out
JeN413n704: lol
Blackcherrie31: wha
JeN413n704: im doin it fer u
Blackcherrie31: doin what
JeN413n704: i wouldnt do that aohhhhh
Blackcherrie31: get away from my goats
JeN413n704: 5447 was my number now
JeN413n704: right now sumbody else has that number
Blackcherrie31: wha
Blackcherrie31: big words
JeN413n704: im on fiyah
Blackcherrie31: <--small ming
Blackcherrie31: *mind
Blackcherrie31: what the hell are u saying
JeN413n704: heyyyyyyyyyy hooooooo i wanna riot
Blackcherrie31: can the goats come
JeN413n704: i duno anymore
Blackcherrie31: they didn't do anything to u
JeN413n704: im buyin Mattz guitar
Blackcherrie31: but really..
Blackcherrie31: whats going on
Blackcherrie31: whuz up
Blackcherrie31: -dion
Blackcherrie31: actually its more like whuz uh
JeN413n704: uh
JeN413n704: huh
Blackcherrie31: moment of silence.
JeN413n704: SCREAMIN 187 ON A MOTHER FUCKING COP
Blackcherrie31: dude.. i hate cops
Blackcherrie31: i hate america
JeN413n704: i hate....
Blackcherrie31: i'm with rocio
JeN413n704: dude u kno why i quit dex?
Blackcherrie31: why
JeN413n704: because
JeN413n704: it made me think
JeN413n704: and i thought so much
Blackcherrie31: i quit cause i couldn't get a ride to food lion
JeN413n704: i wanted to kill myself
Blackcherrie31: no good
JeN413n704: LMAO @ that
Blackcherrie31: i thought about everything
Blackcherrie31: and i loved it
JeN413n704: me too....
JeN413n704: but like...
JeN413n704: i hate it
Blackcherrie31: and i want some.. cause i get so bored.
JeN413n704: cuz it made me wanna kill myself
Blackcherrie31: but i can't
JeN413n704: me too
Blackcherrie31: ur weird.. shut ur face
JeN413n704: but .... we should balance out the chemicalz in our body
JeN413n704: with somethin up
Blackcherrie31: huh
Blackcherrie31: i'm a gerber baby
Blackcherrie31: hey.
Blackcherrie31: whats up
JeN413n704: chicken licken
JeN413n704: date rape gabwe
Blackcherrie31: OOOOOOOOOOOO why does kevin "hate my ass" u never answered... like i said i didn't do nothing he did.
JeN413n704: blow my whistle bitch
JeN413n704: *shrugZ*
Blackcherrie31: ::blows::
Blackcherrie31: need a toaster
JeN413n704: he's prob just tryin to make me think he likez me
Blackcherrie31: dude... imma getting that weird angle displaced dex feeling right now
Blackcherrie31: mmm... needs to get laid.
JeN413n704: lol
Blackcherrie31: i'll bring him a aids goat
Blackcherrie31: bastard
JeN413n704: lmaoooooo date rape gabe
JeN413n704: *skaz*
JeN413n704: it's hotter than 66
JeN413n704: i wanna stay a kid....
Blackcherrie31: u got pic of gabe
JeN413n704: on my web site
JeN413n704: www.geocities.com/jenhen704
JeN413n704: you crazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy foolz
Blackcherrie31: dude.. where is pie
JeN413n704: um....
JeN413n704: probably driving around drinking?
Blackcherrie31: that ian pic looks like a casey pic i have.
JeN413n704: RAWR
JeN413n704: that kid....
JeN413n704: im goin to Engaldn JUST to fuk him
Blackcherrie31: i can't find gabe
Blackcherrie31: nm
Blackcherrie31: he is a pretty boi.. me no like
JeN413n704: yea me either
Blackcherrie31: i like ugly junkie lookin bois
Blackcherrie31: check this shit out
JeN413n704: he's like..... raver gino boi tho
Blackcherrie31: Bully Caps 1
JeN413n704: IF IT WASNT FOR DATE RAPE ID NEVA GET LAIDDDDD
JeN413n704: i dont want kevin to fuk shit up
JeN413n704: i spent it allllll
Blackcherrie31: huh
JeN413n704: i duno talk to me im bored
Blackcherrie31: i like michael pitt
JeN413n704: i dont
JeN413n704: i like...
JeN413n704: nobody =\
Blackcherrie31: Hedwig caps 3
JeN413n704: =O
JeN413n704: harry potter?
JeN413n704: LMAO
JeN413n704: call kevin harry poter
JeN413n704: he getz mad
Blackcherrie31: Murder By Numbers 1
Blackcherrie31: look at the sexy
Blackcherrie31: i wont be calling kevin anything
Blackcherrie31: except for dead
Blackcherrie31: dude i want michael pitt
JeN413n704: LMAO
Blackcherrie31: have u seen murder by numbers yet
JeN413n704: duuuuuuuuuuuuuude
JeN413n704: im hyper
Blackcherrie31: dude we should kill someone like ryan and michael did in murder by numbers
JeN413n704: lol
JeN413n704: huh
JeN413n704: u gotta see boondock saintz
Blackcherrie31: noo
Blackcherrie31: u gotta see murder by numbers
JeN413n704: u do
Blackcherrie31: u dont think michael pitt is hot
JeN413n704: u kno wut
JeN413n704: u should spend the night
JeN413n704: and we should go to kevinz
JeN413n704: he'd fukkin freak
JeN413n704: LMAOOOOOOO
Blackcherrie31: hows tommorow
JeN413n704: maybeeee
Blackcherrie31: i'm free all summer
JeN413n704: if im still here i duno where im goin
Blackcherrie31: i'm going to concord next year
JeN413n704: oh u suk
JeN413n704: im going to..... central cabarrus high skule
Blackcherrie31: concord.. i'll be pimpin
Blackcherrie31: is kevin living in the same place
JeN413n704: nah
Blackcherrie31: is he livin with andrew
Blackcherrie31: ha ha
JeN413n704: i duno andrew
Blackcherrie31: oh
JeN413n704: whoz andrew?
Blackcherrie31: does he be in a group home
JeN413n704: sum mexican name ronald?
JeN413n704: i fink?
Blackcherrie31: wha
JeN413n704: shrugidy shrudg
Blackcherrie31: he lives outside a group home
JeN413n704: he livez.... under a rock
JeN413n704: LMAO
Blackcherrie31: hey... would u be offended if i brought a knife with me if we went to his house
JeN413n704: LMAO
Blackcherrie31: dude.. u gotta a tape player? vhs?
JeN413n704: no
Blackcherrie31: dammit
Blackcherrie31: i got murder by numbers on video
Blackcherrie31: i want u to see it
Blackcherrie31: i want to kill someone
Blackcherrie31: lets dex and kill someone..
JeN413n704: lol
JeN413n704: and blame it on the dex
Blackcherrie31: hell yeah
Blackcherrie31: legally insane
JeN413n704: fuck ya
Blackcherrie31: was that a fuck you, or fuck yeah
JeN413n704: fuck yaaaaaaa
JeN413n704: YYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
JeN413n704: LMAO
JeN413n704: i love me
JeN413n704: im so dumb
Blackcherrie31: dude... just like murder by numbers lets pick a random person coughkevincough coughagainandrewcough and kill them and frame someone.
JeN413n704: woah
JeN413n704: we should plan it out tho
JeN413n704: i wanna see a dead body
Blackcherrie31: yeah.
Blackcherrie31: just like in the movie.
Blackcherrie31: they planned it out.
JeN413n704: ya
Blackcherrie31: and they were kinda gay together.. which was sexy as hell.. but me and u can leave that out
JeN413n704: yes
Blackcherrie31: huh
Blackcherrie31: yeah
JeN413n704: weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Blackcherrie31: u gotta see the movie
Blackcherrie31: can i bring my vcr and hook it to ur tv.
JeN413n704: suuuuuuure
Blackcherrie31: and then we can kill people
JeN413n704: yaaa
Blackcherrie31: imma not kidding
Blackcherrie31: we dont have to kill kevin
Blackcherrie31: we can frame him
Blackcherrie31: we can kill....... nick little
JeN413n704: =O
JeN413n704: YES!!!!!!
JeN413n704: i hate that fat fuck!
Blackcherrie31: but i gotta be famous... and get me a michael pitt
Blackcherrie31: i found a mike pitt look-alike.. and his name is jay, but he doesn't talk to minors
Blackcherrie31: which sucks.
Blackcherrie31: cause we would be perfect for each other.
JeN413n704: i kno
JeN413n704: like....
JeN413n704: jay n jay
Blackcherrie31: and i need 200 dollars... by august 5th... cause i'mma have to pay a fine.
Blackcherrie31: and no one will hire me
JeN413n704: for weed?
Blackcherrie31: y eah
JeN413n704: im gettin a job =D
Blackcherrie31: u bastard.
Blackcherrie31: where
Blackcherrie31: someone told me not to trust u.. ur trying to kill me
Blackcherrie31: dude.. u gotta see mbn
JeN413n704: lmao
Blackcherrie31: mike pitt is sooo hott.. and so is ryan gosling
JeN413n704: im killing everyone
JeN413n704: dont trut me
JeN413n704: im gonna die soon
Blackcherrie31: no
Blackcherrie31: what if sandra bullock gets in the way>?
Blackcherrie31: i hate that bitch... alll up in the movie.
Blackcherrie31: and she didn't even show sympathy for mike even he saved her life.
Blackcherrie31: annoyance.
JeN413n704: ya
JeN413n704: what the fuck is wrong with you!@#!#?@!#$
JeN413n704: LMAO deamn
Blackcherrie31: wha
Blackcherrie31: she is dumb
JeN413n704: ok
JeN413n704: so are curly friez
JeN413n704: they're like....
Blackcherrie31: all i wanna see is mike and ryan get it on and she is all up in my face bitching about them being the killers... JUST LEAVE THEM ALONE
JeN413n704: wannabe
JeN413n704: zz
Blackcherrie31: WHA
Blackcherrie31: I WANT THEM TO KILL ME
Blackcherrie31: AS LONG AS I GET TO LICK THEM
JeN413n704: wer
Blackcherrie31: huh
Blackcherrie31: everywhere
JeN413n704: shrug
Blackcherrie31: dam the scots
JeN413n704: irish!@
JeN413n704: burp
JeN413n704: slurp

Swwooonniie

2003-06-25T20:43:34Z

Like... Omg... Michael Pitt is soo fine.. I wish i could find him... and yeah...

wooooo

I'm so bored with like... i'm off dex. i miss my old friends... i miss andrew, and dion.. and i want michael pitt dammit... someone find him and i'll pay you!!!

I need some friends... I need someone....

I feel lonley... geeezz... i'm dying

deathdesire13 @ 2003-06-02T13:05:00

2003-06-02T16:52:25Z

i'm running away, and i need someone to house me... i will get a job and pay monthly!!! someone help me!

deathdesire13 @ 2003-05-18T16:20:00

2003-05-18T20:20:16Z

i hate waterloo iowa!!!!!!!

deathdesire13 @ 2003-05-17T17:28:00

2003-05-18T00:28:28Z

You will drink too much gin. Not the worst way to
die, but you won't remember too much of your
life. Hey, at least you made some people laugh!

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DEXIN TRIPPin

2003-05-04T02:33:43Z

I DON'T EAT THAT SHIT.. I LICK THAT SHIT... I THROW THAT SHIT OFF THE TABLE...
LICKIN LOBSTERS!!!

KYLE IS THE COOLEST PERSON IN THE WORLD.. AND THAT IS A FACT. DUDE, I'M ABOUT TO BE TRIPPIN, AND KYLE JUST CAME OVER... HE IS THE COOLEST PERSON IN THE WORLD... I LU KYLE! HIM AND ROCIO ARE SOOO PERFECT TOGETHER.... BUT DAMM... HE IS SOOO COOOLL... LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA. KYLE IS SOOO DAM COOOLL.. HIS MIND IS LIKE PROBALLY 3X NORMAL.. HE IS SOO CREATIVE... HE MAKES HIS OWN WEAPONS AND WANDS, AND STICKYS... AND HIS CAR IS AWESOME... AND THE LIGHTS ARE FLASHING.. AND I'MMA WORSHIP KYLE. KYLE IS THE GOD OF INCENSE AND COOLNESS... HE IS SOOO COOL.. OH MY GOD. KYLE IS THE BEST.

I MISS KEVIN... BUT HE CAN'T TALK ON THE PHONE, AND I WANNA BE WITH HIM RIGHT NOW. BUT MAN... I FEEL SO WEIRD, ITS LIKE.... I'M A LITTLE RED HEAD WITH PIG TAILS, AND A RED NECKLACE ON, AND A ARMBAND, AND MY ASS AND THONG IS HANGING OUT, AND I'M LISTENING TO SOMETHING ABOUT LIKE LOVERS DO... JEN IS A WEIRDO... SHE IS JUST LIKE ME... WE ARE TWIN CHORD BUDDIES... WE SQUINT ONE EYE WHEN WE TALK. WE ARE THE COOLEST. CHORD TWINS! THATS IS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT!

ME AND JEN WILL BOTH DIE FROM OLSEY'S LESIONS.

YEP YEP YEP.

"I DON'T EAT THAT SHIT, I LICK THAT SHIT, AND I THROW THAT SHIT RIGHT OFF THE TABLE" - KYLE

AND LIKE UM... STUFF...

I'MMA RIGHT BACK, WHEN I'M FULLY TRIPIIN

deathdesire13 @ 2003-05-02T09:15:00

2003-05-02T13:16:32Z

I need dex!!!!!

Ok

2003-04-28T23:55:40Z

So, I went and saw House of 1,000 Corpses, once when I was straight, then when I was on Dex... and It was a good movie! It was fucked up... But I loved it. Its one of my favoritest movies. But anyways... Kevin's stalker wants to beat my ass, and I'm scared, cause she is like 200 pounds... And she will kill me... and like I don't know, I think she is just talking shit, but maybe not. GRRR! She better not fucking touch me. Anyways, I think my sis is having a surprise party or something, cause she wants a list of friends and numbers. And also Mom might get my tongue pierced Sat or Sun. YAY!

La la la...

2003-04-15T13:29:10Z

Ok, I'm dating Kevin now... and today I'm having my surgery, so I'll have lots of pain pills and stuff... and I can stay out of school tommorow. Next weekend I'mma going to the beach with dad, and I'm gonna get a tan, and his girlfriend is gonna buy me lots of stuff. and yeah.. me and jen are gonna go to the moon on dex when i get some more c's... me and her decided that the international time for chords... or dex is gonna be 8:10.... and yeah... (4:20 for weed, 8:10 for dex.) yep, and we are gonna make shirts that say 8:10, got c?

I broke up with Dion.

2003-04-04T14:17:59Z

Um, I broke up with Dion last night, so I can go out with Kevin... But today Jimmy told me that Kevin is talking shit to that ugly bitch Charlotte. And Ashley is being a bitch saying she doesn't know if I can stay with Jenelle, cause I stayed up till 10. What the fuck? Thats so fucking stupid. Me and Jen are gonna go to the Moon tonight... if fuck face lets me go... dammit... she is such a bitch.. whatever.

I hate Jon...

2003-03-30T14:30:33Z

I don't know if I am gonna be able to go with Mom today, because Jon is saying he isn't letting her go anywhere alone... and Ashley says if Jon is with Mom then I can't go... and If I don't get to go today, then Mom can kiss my ass... cause i'm not talking to her again.. cause its basically her choosing jon over me... cause she could tell jon he isn't going. its her fucking car dammit. I'm probally breaking up with Dion and gonna go with Kevin, cause Dion is not being all he should be, he hasnt' called me in three days, and when i talk to him.. he says I should have called him... fuck that bullshit.. i ain't suppose to call him, he can call me. And he always doesn't even say anything to jon when jon is the reason he probally won't see me today. but anyways... I just wish life was easy...

deathdesire13 @ 2003-03-26T19:11:00

2003-03-27T00:11:20Z

YOU BEAT OLD LADIES FOR PILLS!!!

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DXM

2003-03-26T15:26:05Z

I got grounded yesterday, cause Ashley found letters about chords at grandpa's house. But when I got home, I took 6, cause she was pissing me off, it's been 4 weeks and I needed a fix. I told Dion, he said when I told him that, it hurt his heart. That makes me want to cry. I don't know what to do about him and Kevin, cause I love Dion, but I like Kevin, but I don't know if Dion is good for me or not.
I just want to chill and not have to worry about anything. I don't know what to do about my chord problem right now... But I wanna switch to dexalone or something... but I don't know where to find dexalone. GRR!!! I just want to be free, and be careless, and do whatever the fuck I want to dammit. Life is stupid, and I need more drugs, I miss Dion, and I don't even know. I miss mom...